Missing..

Yest, when i reached home, i felt something missing... Hehe...i start missing Kak Khusnah... It is just so difficult for me to express it out. Usually, when i came back from work or anywhere, kak Khusnah will asked if im hungry or not , she will offer to cook or get food for me to eat... But, yest i've forgotten that i'm hungry till i went to bed without having my dinner.

Today, sis msn me telling me that she called mama. Mama cried coz she miss Kak Khusnah. I miss her too. But...the most sad thing is Kak Khusnah's mum passed away. I believe she didn't know till she arrived her home today morning. She called and informed mama. God...i'm so sad. I'm really lost of words... I hope she's ok by now, no doubt i know she is not. Kak Khusnah if you can hear me... patient is the best word i can say as of now. I'm sure u r strong enuf to face all this. You can always count on mama... Ya mama... she nags, she scolds but she have a beautiful heart which some people dunno. Im sure u noe that.

Kak Khusnah, i really hope u come back 1 day.... Come back to our family.

GoodBye Sis!! *i will always remember you*

As of today, my maid, Khusnah will be going back to her home town for good. All this while i've never imagined that she will be leaving us. She has been working with us for 8 yrs, i was only 15 back then. Time really flies super duper fast. I was in sec 3 when she first joined our family and now im getting married in 11 months time. Sad that she is not here to see me in the wedding gown.

I would like to thank Kak Khusnah so much for her help and contributions all these years. She has been a great help to my family and i really appreciate that alot no doubt i can be pain in the ass at times.*hehehe* Well thats me... but, i've never bear any grudges against her. I felt relieved when the moment i seek forgiveness from her this morning before im off to work. Hope she forgives me for my wrong doings to her for the past 8 yrs i have known her and also my family members especially my 2 brothers who's making her life difficult at times. This morning might be the last time i saw her coz she will be leaving this evening at 1800hrs. Im unable to send her off due to my commitment at work. As a token of appreciation, me and Dear bought a necklace for her as i know she loves necklace. Hope she like it.

All the best to you Kak... Insyallah kalau ada jodoh kita bertemu lagi.


P.S: This is what people say, when u have that someone around, u tend to take for granted but when that someone has gone u will start to miss....

Disappointment

I know i have not been blogging lately. Well, i'm not sure of myself either. I have this mixed feelings fot the past few months. At times my sis will asked me if i have new blogs? Told her not the time yet... *Hehehe...sorry sis....*


Where to start? Ermm.... lets start with my engagement. Scroll up and see how many months left to our wedding and honestly, im very disappointed with Dear lately. Something is not right... we have been quarelling, arguing becoz of 1 tiny weeny fly. I always tell myself that i will NEVER tell him to change coz i've read somewhere that if u want that person to change...YOU, urself have to change. Basically, i've changed alot, whereby i dun stop him with all his activities, i dun intrude to his privacy which he HATE it so much, i have to understand that he is tired on his 1st off day and we are not supposed to meet at all on his every first off. There are so many dos and don'ts which i have to obey but Dear never understand what i want and what is my need. Well, i never deny that he will make a point that we meet up on his 2nd off. There are so many things which i want to pour out to him...BUT, im sure it will lead to an argument.

Dear.... it is very, very, very disappointing when you as my future husband saying those harsh words on me. Will you stop using those harsh words on me? You know it is very disappointing when ur love ones call u, IDIOT, U R A NUISANCE, STUPID, IRRITATING worse still when they said they are BORED of you. HOW WOULD U FEEL LADIES? Not juz the ladies im sure MEN do have the same feelings too when their luv ones use those harsh words on them. Why cant Dear talk to me nicely which im sure every women would love to hear her men talk to them nicely. That is what i want from my only Dear but i dunno till when Dear will stop using those harsh words on me.

Till today, my heart is full of heartache and disappointment. I myself not sure how long i have to live, accompanied by my tears every nite before i close my eyes to sleep.

P.S: Sis is not that i dont wish to share my sorrows with you.... im sure u r occupied with ur beautiful kids and abg also at times hurt you. No matter what i believe that my bro is faithful to you. *smilez*