Papa is my HERO

I juz came back from work yesterday when Papa told me that he has got something to tell me. I felt uneasy whenever he said that. I followed him to the room then he asked me, ''what if i can't work anymore?" I juz told him it's ok if he's not working looking at his age he supposed to be resting at home. Papa told me that the Doctor said he can't work anymore coz he has eyesight problem. I was very sad to hear that. I can see the tears in his eyes wen he told me that he cant work anymore. Worse come to worse he has to go for an operation. Looking at his state, i wud rather he sit at home and rest coz i dun wan anything to happen to him coz he's driving. He carry passengers. I dun want anyone to blame him. Before i left the room he told me not to think so much. How can i don't think? He's my dad.. He's everything to me... same goes to mum.

Papa is a very hardworking man, he is a very responsible man, he take pride of his work. Im very fortunate to have him as my father. I always wanted to have a husband like my papa. I noe im the only child that he tells of his problem. But...wat worries me is my elder bro. He take things very lightly. I can forsee if my mum & dad no longer around my bro gonna live with full of regret coz he always hurt their feelings. My elder bro is too dependant on mum. Im gonna get married in 1 yr time, who's gonna help out mum and dad. Im hoping that my elder bro change to be more responsible. As for my younger bro i have no worries coz he will listen to me.

Whatever it is, Papa i will pray for your health. I will be always here for u and mama. I wanna take care of both of you.

I really love u so much... =..)

Ya ALLAH... panjangkanlah umur kedua ibu bapa ku.

Amin.

you are SELFISH!

Yesterday, my lil' bro rcved a phone call from his fren. The moment he hung up the phone, my lil' bro told me that this fren of his suffered from Gonorrhoea. He happened to be my puppy love yrs back. Back then, he was a nice boy. Now, he grew up to be a... should i call him a 'Dirty Man'. As what i know he's married with one daughter. First thing on my mind was his wife. How can he be so selfish. What if his wife get the same thing? Isn't it SELFISH. Gonorrhoea is easy to treat but if left untreated, it can lead to more-serious health problems. Honestly, i have no say. I know Gonorrhoea is a mild disease, wat if he get contacts to those having HIV/AIDS. Really hope he will start to think for his future.

Congratulation to Afida and the Groom (sorry i dunno the Groom's name)

A New Beginning

Looking to the sky

Watching doves ascending

A new life has begun

Let it be never ending

Two young hearts beating as one

In a full embrace caressed by the sun

Flowers bloom colors sing in celebration

Tears of joy heartfelt elation

Smiles that warm they fill the air

Droplets form on cheeks with many

Hugs to share

Young hearts eyes aglow

Love like a raging river flow

Butterflies flutter in a joyful dance

Soft breeze whispers of sweet dreams and romance

This day has been blessed it is filled with love

With the blessing of the good lord up above

Sharing the eternal love he gives

Two young hearts joined as one

Born again to each as husband and wife

It has begun..

My turn gonna be in Feb 2009.

Insya'Allah..

Happy Birthday Papa

A dad is someone who wants to catch you before you fall
but instead picks you up, brushes you off, and let you try again.

A dad is someone who wants to keep you from making mistakes
but instead let you find your own way, even though his heart breaks in silence when you get hurt.

A dad is someone who holds you when you cry, scolds you when you break the rules, shines with pride when you succeed, and has faith in you even when you fail...

He's proud of your triumphs, but when things go wrong, a dad can be patient and helpful and strong in all that you do, a dad's love plays a part. There's always a place for him deep in your heart. And each year that passes, you're even more glad, more grateful and proud just to call him your dad! Thank you, Dad... for listening and caring, for giving and sharing, but, especially, for just being you!


HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

There once was a little girl who had a bad temper. Her mother gave her a bag of nails and told her that every time she lost her temper, she must hammer a nail into the back of the fence.

The first day the girl had driven 37 nails into the fence.

Over the next few weeks, as she learned to control her anger, the number of nails hammered daily gradually dwindled down. She discovered it was easier to hold her temper than to drive those nails into the fence.

Finally the day came when the girl didn't lose her temper at all. She told her mother about it and the mother suggested that the girl now pull out one nail for each day that she was able to hold her temper.

The day passed and the young girl was finally able to tell her mother that all the nails were gone. The mother took her by the hand and led her to the fence. She said, "You have done well, my daughter, but look at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one." You can put a knife in a person and draw it out. It won't matter how many times you say "I'm sorry", the wound is still there. A verbal wound is as bad as physical one.

Antara 9 Siti yang patut dicontohi:

1) Siti Khadijah- Beliau merupakan isteri Rasulullah s.a.w yg melahirkan anak2 Rasulullah, setia dan menyokong Rasulullah walaupun ditentang hebat oleh org2 kafir dan musyrik, menghantarkan makanan kpd Baginda ketika Baginda beribadat di Gua Hira’.

2) Siti Fatimah- Anak Rasulullah yg tinggi budi pekertinya.Sangat kasih dan setia kpd suaminya Ali karamallahu wajhah walaupun Ali miskin.Tidur berkongsikan 1 bantal dan kdg2 berbantalkan lengan Ali.Rasulullah pernah b’kata aku takkan maafkan kamu wahai Fatimah sehinggalah Ali maafkan kamu.

3) Siti A’ishah- Beliau isteri Rasulullah yg paling romantik.Sanggup berkongsi bekas makanan dan minuman dgn Rasulullah.Di mana Nabi s.a.w minum di situ beliau akan minum menggunakan bekas yg sama

4) Siti Hajar- Isteri Nabi Ibrahim yg patuh kpd suami dan suruhan Allah.Sanggup ditinggalkan oleh Nabi Ibrahim atas suruhan Allah demi kebaikan.Berjuang mencari air utk anaknya Nabi Ismail (Pengorbanan seorg ibu mithali).

5) Siti Mariam- Wanita suci yg mmg pandai menjaga kehormatan diridan mempunyai maruah yg tinggi sehingga rahimnya dipilih oleh Allah s.w.tutk mengandungkan Nabi Isa.

6) Siti Asiah- Isteri Firaun yg tinggi imannya dan tidak gentar dgn ujian yg dihadapinya drpd Firaun Laknatullah.

7) Siti Aminah- Wanita mulia yg menjadi ibu kandung Rasullullah. Mendidik baginda menjadi insan mulia.

8.) Siti Muti’ah- Isteri yg patut dicontohi dan dijanjikan Allah syurga untuknyakerana setianya kpd suami, menjaga makan minum, menyediakan tongkat utkdipukul oleh suaminya sekiranya layanannya tidak memuaskan hati,berhias dgn cantik utk tatapan suaminya sahaja.

9 ) Siti Zubaidah- Wanita kaya dermawan yg menjadi isteri Khalifah Harun Al-Rashid.Sanggup membelanjakan semua hartanya utk membina terusan utkkegunaan org ramai hanya niat kerana Allah s.w.t.

Happy 7th Anniversary

MAY ALLAH BLESS YOUR MARRIAGE (SIS JLO & BRO GARY)

i'm CONFUSED again

GOD! 'm confused again...again and again. All this have to stop. GOD! Please give me the strength to face all this. Things tend to get out of hand. I may look cool outside but in me no one knows. At times i juz wanna to end up everything and start afresh like a new born baby. At times i do wanna accept all this sincerely. WHAT SHUD I DO? I'm not strong. I HATE this feeling. GOD! Please lead me to the right path where i can strive for happiness. I will GOD, i will accept all the obstacles that was sent down to me, i will accept it with my sincere heart.

Changi Beach

Yesterday.... me, Dear, my mama, Dear's mak, mak's fren and Dear's little notty nephew went to Changi Beach. Its been a long time we did not go to Changi. Dear, told me to bring my running shoe as he want me to go jogging with him. *Sigh* i love running but i hate those aching that im gonna have the following day. Well, luck is on my side as Dear have forgotten to bring his running shoe. Hahahaa....Next time ya my Dear. *winkz*

Actually, i met Dear and the rest at Tanah Merah bus stop. We took bus service no.2 to Changi Village and we had our brunch.

Later in the afternoon, mama came alone. Poor mama, i tot she will be coming with her sis. I really appreaciate her of coming and join in the fun.

Before changing, Dear did his workout and ''pendek'' will be his instructor.

Dear and "pendek'' digging the sand. Pic taken from far.

''pendek all wet''. He look cute with that swimming trunk.

blur ''pendek''

Dear, covered half of his body wif sand.

Nice pose.

look at him...he's actually pointing at the aeroplane.

and he's half buried by us.

Love this pic... dun get cheated, im the one who took this pix, not Dear.

Sentosa

Dear brought me to Sentosa with his troop on Deepavali. I really enjoyed myself.

Time to bury Dear.

Upclose!

His whole body

I enjoyed doing this to him.

After changing, Dear's colleague drive us to Harbour Front as Dear parked his bike at Vivo. Before heading to Vivo to get the bike we went to the food court and had our dinner. Well, as usual me and my N73 taking our pix.

Loving Dinoor

HE

SHE

love one

Ya Allah, segala apa yg berlaku di atas muka bumi ini adalah kehendakMu. Tiada siapa yg dapat melawan takdirMu. Ya Allah, aku bermohon padaMu, sembuhkanlah temanku Khristino dan tempatkanlah Arwah Siti Hajah digolongan org-org yg beriman.

Ya Allah, kau telah membuka hatiku supaya menghargai org2 yg berada disekelilingku. Ya Allah...berikanlah kekuatan pada temanku, Khristino. Aku tidak sanggup melihat kesedihan dan keperitannya kerana kehilangan org yg paling disayangi.

Khris seandainya kau tahu... aku dan Kinn ingin sekali berkongsi kedukaan dan juga kebahagiaan kau bersama.

Semoga cepat sembuh wahai temanku...

Njoy

my edited pix.

leave me ALONE!

Lari,lari,lari
Aku lari tingallkan semua ini
Untuk mencari, cari,cari
Ketenangan diri.....iiii...

Pergi,pergi,pergi
Engkau pergi dari hidupku ini
Ku tak mahu, mahu
Engkau hadir dalam diri ini...iiiii...

Keluhan hatiku tak siapa yang tahu
Ku simpan semua sebak di dada
Biar ku yang terluka
Pernahkah kau mengerti caraku memujukmu

Pernahkah kau hargai caraku mencintaimu
Lafaskan kata dari bibir
Adakahnya dari hati
Mungkin kau tak fahami maksudnya yang tersembunyi
Titisan air mata dari pipi ke bumi
Pernahkah kau peduli betapa sedih diriku ini

This song goes to a man that i used to love. A man who hurts me mentally and physically. Please leave me alone as my heart belongs to a man who deserve my love.

P.S: Dear, hurting you will be the last thing that im gonna do in this world.

Life is PRECIOUS - Live and Treasure it

I asked God,
"how do I get the best out of life?'

God answered:
''face your past with no regret, handle your present with confidence, prepare for the future without fear."

Then He added,
"keep the faith and drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts and never doubt your beliefs. Life is wonderful if you know how to live."

the Gathering (ex-alohanz)

Im juz so free at work. Time to upload pix that was sent to me for memorable.

This was one of the gathering we had after all of us left aloha. We had dinner at Clark Quay then head for a drink at Boat Quay. This is only half of the group the other half had left after dinner.



saw that redbull? im a non-alcohol..

DINOOR

Pix taken at Vivo. Juz the 2 of us.

Im SORRY..

Im a person who will admit my mistakes and tell the truth if i were to tell lies. I dunno how to tell lies especially to my luv ones.... Dear have been saving for our big day and as for me i don't really save. The moment he found out that i did not save he was very disappointed. Surprisingly, he did not even raised his voice on me like what he normally does. He's a changed MAN now. I appreciate that, Dear. At first, he was having doubts on me....i guess he still. Dear, wonder where my money has gone too. Partly, why i spend my money bcoz im afraid things does not work out between us. I don't wanna put high hope on my marriage as im afraid to be hurt again. We are still in the process of improving things and... Alhamdulilah, it works.

Well, what Dear did was he asked for my internet banking device and also my bank book. He will keep it and return it to me if my savings had reached to his expectation. I dun mind if he were to keep my bank book till we' re married.

I cried when he told me that he work hard to save money for our wedding and also for our future. The way he speak like a husband advising his wife. I love the way he speak to me.

Dear, i know u've work hard to have all my needs fulfilled. You are a very wise man, i will never deny that. You don't spend unnecessarily. Whatever it is now, im convinced that you truly love me and want me to be your wife.

I know is a complete disappoinment. I am TRULY sorry. I have my reasons behind everything i do. Not to worry no man involve.

Selamat Hari Raya

Tersusun rapi jari jemari,

kemaafan kupohon setulus hati,

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri,

Maaf zahir Batin.

Selamat Menyempurnakan

Ibadah Puasa Ramadhan & Selamat Menyambut Hari Raya Yang

Bakal Menjelang Di Samping Yang Tersayang

Yang Ikhlas,
SweetLady

DND 2006 (the alohanz)

While browsing thru' my previous email i happened to open one email with photos attachment. It is the DND pix. Out of sudden i miss aloha and the people USE to work there, a place which brings sour and sweet memories. A place where i met so many nice people. People who are always there for me when i'm in need. Not juz wen im in need...they are there for me to share my happiness too. We are juz like a happy family working under 2 roofs(aloha Loyang and Changi). But I was sad that...as of NOW aloha is flooded with Philippines staff. Where are all the Singaporeans gone to? Well, there's nothing much to complain as i'm currently adapting to my new workplace.

Ladies & Gentlemen

Just the Ladies

Me & Cik Muz (he can be my dad, uncle and a fren too.)

All the best to all ex-alohanz!

Do you remember?

Do you remember our first meeting?

Never will i forget that special moment.

The moment which brought me to life,

U make me forget those unwanted past.

Do you remember when the day u left me?

Gosh...my heart shattered into pieces.

Everyday and night i prayed,

Pray for having you back in my life again.

Do you remember the day we got back together?
I thank God as he has been a great listener.
He had fulfilled my wish,
Wish that i never thought will come true.

Now, what i have to remember is,
I have u back in my life, the thing that i cherish most.
And i know u only LOVE me and no one else
And will be waiting for the moment i will say, "Yes, I do''.

still fresh on my Mind...

Last night i had a dream, me and Dear went to Sentosa with a Little Toddler. In my dream the Little Toddler was my dotter. I really had a good look at her she was so adorable, with big eyes and very fair. She was smiling all the way and i juz cudn't take my eyes off from her. In that dream i was so happy that me and Dear finally got married and blessed with a lovely dotter.

The moment i woke up my heart beating so fast and the first thing on my mind was that Little Toddler i still can recall how she exactly look like. How i wish that dream was real, the happiness that i always long for.

I can't wait to share it with Dear. When i told him he was so happy i can see that wide smile on his face. He was so excited about us having a dotter. And he would like to have a dotter for our first child.

Later at night before i left him for the day he would kiss and hug me as usual and this time he also mentioned to kiss our dotter if i were to see her in my dream again. I was touched, i juz smile and walk away.

When Dear reached home, he will normally sms me telling me that he's home safely and he also mentioned about our dotter again...the sms goes.."If u mit our daughter, do gif her a kiss n tell her i luv her..." and the 2nd sms was ..."i do hope i get to c my daughter n hw she looked like''. Gosh....i was very touched by Dear's word... how i wish it cud turn out to be a real thing. Ya..one day, Insyallah. Dear gonna be a good hubby as well as a good daddy.

I LOVE U, DEAR!

my broken HEART

he told me he likes me
but i knew it better
i know his heart is not free
because he's in love with another

i know he's in love with someone else
it's hard for me to forget him though
it's only him that my heart tells
but what can i do? my chances are low

the pain sears in my heart like a knife in my flesh
he's still here in my mind and heart
the pain brought by the heartache was still very fresh
he's the only one for me ever since the start

i want to go, i want to flee
but you know how much he means to me
i can't bear to be away from him
eventhough all the sweet memories was nothing but...a dream.

not easy being ME

An indelible past stamped on my memory, coming back to play across my mind at unexpected moment. I simply hate my past, it is a complete heartache. I left with no choice but to look ahead. What can i say...? It is all been written. No one like to be betrayed or get hurt by a person they love most.

I really hope the past will be gone forever....but i know it is impossible. I will only live the past behind the moment i shut my eyes for the very last time.

Never will i go thru' such obstacles again. Im happy now juz would like to retain this happiness till the end.

Happy Bday Duni

18 September 2007 was Duni's 12th bday. Duni was one of my Dear's favourite cuz.

I was working on that day while Dear juz came back from his first off day. As usual Dear die die won't go out on his first off day, he will spend quality time shape up his bod. Nah....I'm really use to it, cant blame him as he juz came back from 24hr shift.

I msged Dear remind him to call Duni as it is her bday. As norm, i will be the operator on Dear's behalf. The reason why i refused to call becos i was BROKE hahaha....Dear, insist me to call instead. NOT FAIR! Well, doesn't wanna argue told him will call Duni later maybe after break fast.

Last year, Dear bought for her Billabong bag. Still remember when Dear gave her the bday gift Dear said, '' 3 yrs u cannot ask for anything(juz joking...he do mean it at times)," he will tell me the same phrase each and every time he bought for me anything. "Dear, im use to it, u will still get me those stuff that I WANT *winkz*.'' Heard from Dear's mom that this year Duni wants Adidas watch. Gosh...Juz got for her younger sis pink Adidas watch last June. I like the white one.. Cool..

After breaking my fast i called Duni and wished her Happy Birthday. I didnt asked what she want but i told her, ''abg Dino will get for you a belated bday present,'' she acked. We hung up after i wish her all the best. She's having her PSLE this year, Insyallah...she can make it.
Haha...Dear gonna scold me for telling Duni that he will be getting a belated bday present for her. Sorry Dear..that's the reason why i refused to call her in the first place.

Dear told me he will not get anything for Duni. WAIT!! Duni called him on the 19th. This time Duni wants Baby G watch as her parents already bought for her the Adidas watch, purple color i guess. Well...as usual, Dear repeat his fav phrase again but after being persuaded, Dear agreed to it. Duni is a swit gerl...shy too. Dear...she deserve it, just get for her the Baby G watch and NOT to forget mine too *winkz*

Joke of the Day!

An old man and an old woman were sitting at the breakfast table on the morning of their 50th wedding anniversary.

The old man said,"You know, 50 years ago, we were probably sitting here buck naked."
The woman said, "Why don't we try that again?"
So they stripped and sat down at the table again. Soon the old woman said, "Honey, my breasts are as hot for you today as they were 50 years ago."
The man replied, "Of course they are dear, one's in your oatmeal and the other's in your coffee!"

my LIFE...

My life how its changed, but who can I blame?
emptiness and heartache is its given name.
My hope and my dreams, were once far and wide
Did you once Stop and think how I was feeling inside?
It used to be full of laughter and wonderful days,
but night after night I continue to pray,
and god give me the strength to live every day.
My heart racing as I lie in my bed,
with tears in my eyes and sad thoughts in my head,
these are the days that I always will dread.
This horrible pain as it breaks my heart every day,
its pain and emptiness, that has come along my way.
I've tried so hard and eager to please,
only to find emptiness such a nasty disease.
Its love and comfort thats all that I need
but my heart breaks in half and has started to bleed.
All I want is love you don't have to ask,
I did not realize this was a difficult task.
My love has always been there, its easy to find
all you have to do is look back in your mind.
I will not give up, I won't bail out of the ship,
I'm strong, and determined to continue this trip,
I won't feel sorry for what happend in the past, but my undying love will forever last.....